life before death.

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This is something I found on Sarah Wilson's blog, originally from Inspiration and Chai. It helped put things into perspective for me this weekend, especially since these are things that I already regret, and want to change. Hopefully you will find it as inspiring as I did.

"I came across this post this morning by an Australian woman who worked in palliative care. She’d chat to dying people about their regrets. Now she’s put together a list of the most common ones she’d come across.

It’s amazing how they’re really just the “regrets of the living”. I regret often that I’m not living to these principles. I’m conscious that working too hard and not choosing the happy choices is not “what life is meant to be about”. But somehow I think there’ll be time for that later…But, of course, habits form, days go by where you don’t stand back and have a good look at your life, and soon enough you’re 75.

My big mantra right now is: this isn’t a dress rehearsal. This is the real thing, there’s no run-up. You simply have to choose now to live out the things you fear you’ll regret. You choose to work less. You choose the happy option. No bones about it. And, besides, why bloody not?? I mean, really??

1. I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.

This was the most common regret of all. When people realise that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people have had not honoured even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made.

2. I wish I didn’t work so hard.

This came from every male patient that I nursed. They missed their children’s youth and their partner’s companionship. Women also spoke of this regret. But as most were from an older generation, many of the female patients had not been breadwinners. All of the men I nursed deeply regretted spending so much of their lives on the treadmill of a work existence.

3. I wish I’d had the courage to express my feelings.

Many people suppressed their feelings in order to keep peace with others. As a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming. Many developed illnesses relating to the bitterness and resentment they carried as a result.

We cannot control the reactions of others. However, although people may initially react when you change the way you are by speaking honestly, in the end it raises the relationship to a whole new and healthier level. Either that or it releases the unhealthy relationship from your life. Either way, you win.

4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.

Often they would not truly realise the full benefits of old friends until their dying weeks and it was not always possible to track them down. Many had become so caught up in their own lives that they had let golden friendships slip by over the years. There were many deep regrets about not giving friendships the time and effort that they deserved. Everyone misses their friends when they are dying.

It is common for anyone in a busy lifestyle to let friendships slip. But when you are faced with your approaching death, the physical details of life fall away. People do want to get their financial affairs in order if possible. But it is not money or status that holds the true importance for them. They want to get things in order more for the benefit of those they love. Usually though, they are too ill and weary to ever manage this task. It is all comes down to love and relationships in the end. That is all that remains in the final weeks, love and relationships.

5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.

This is a surprisingly common one. Many did not realise until the end that happiness is a choice. They had stayed stuck in old patterns and habits. The so-called ‘comfort’ of familiarity overflowed into their emotions, as well as their physical lives. Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to their selves, that they were content. When deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have silliness in their life again."

[From Sarah's post "Top Five Regrets of the Dying"]